In Vain and In Pain...

How does it feel when you don’t understand what exactly happened?

How does it feel when you find yourself to be totally wrong about something that you believed in for years?
How does it feel when something is proved wrong that had happened true to your conscience?
How does it feel when fact turns to be a fiction?
How does it feel when you are fooled again and again?
How does it feel when a most lovable song of yours turns you to be destructive?
How does it feel when something stops you from doing the most interesting thing in your life?
How does it feel when you find yourself as blind, dumb and deaf at the time you reach heaven?
How does it feel when you have dreamt of well being at its best and you cannot sleep till death?
How does it feel when you find yourself to be cursed with something you wanted?
How does it feel when all your plus turns minus at the wrong time?
How does it feel when somebody turns on your inferiority complex high?
How does it feel when you want a rewind button and a fast fwd button for your life at the same time?

The willingness to listen, the patience to understand, the strength to support, the heart to care & just to be there….that is the beauty of a lady!

But, is that an advantage or disadvantage..?? Is it sustainable??
You never know … It depends on how these are taken …

How does it feel when the inner beauty of you is not recognized?
How does it feel when you are considered to be nothing by your own kith and kin?
How does it feel when somebody takes you up above the world so high, make fun of you and then to trash?
How does it feel when stars, moon and windows reminds you of dramatic good old days that was never true?

How does it feel when, even the worst of all news bulletins reminds you of something that was sweet before?
How does it feel when things around reminds you of some betrayer; the moment you step down on the road?
How does it feel when you get reminded of somebody who killed you very badly, when you think of shirdi sai baba?

How does it feel when you get reminded of somebody who hates you the most whenever you feel the rudraksha?

How does it feel when a relationship turns selfish?
How does it feel when somebody takes control of your life and that your life turns meaningless?

How does it feel when all of your daily activities reminds you of someone who proved your existence on this earth to be worthless?

Well, it would feel like hopeless, helpless, blanked out, heavy hearted, dejected and humiliated that may lead to do, what you can’t do …

To get shot on your forehead…
To run into a long, sharp sword through your stomach…
To get nailed down on a cross…
To get hit by a big truck on a busy road and get thrown away…
To put your right hand on your left breast to pierce open the bones and pull your heart out…
To get killed in a way that makes you forget the pain that may have caused due to the above…

Again, helpless…

How does it feel when you want your life back, just as it was when you are helpless? Huh...