Child in me crying out loud :-(

My Mind Is Dull. I'm not sure why that is. Whether it's lack of sleep or lack of sensory input or if it's just plain boredom. I suppose it could be explained by the fact that I've been stuck in my own little corner of the world with something stupid. Or maybe it's because I had so much going on before now. There are plenty of things I could/should be doing, but none of them sound the least bit appetizing right now. Here comes an usual 'TO DO' list. They are, in no specific order:

* Talk to PL and make sure i go to India by Aug 25th.
* Collect the Form 16 from my PM at 10th floor.
* Analyse the Bmgnetx CAE and come up with an estimate. Prepare an analysis document (If possible) to get hold of the analyst before coding.
* Go to the library, drop the CDs & books, collect those are ready for check out.
* Finish and publish the blog about MCAD exam that is still in draft.
* Prepare a 'TO DO' list for the India Plan. ;-)
* Complete the Knitting work.
* Start on canvas painting and Glass painting.
* Write down some of the movies on DVD and free up the hard drive.
* Keep the mind busy. (Pending)

You know what???? I don't like how it is going on right now within me...
I hate it or, alternatively, "I want my childhood back!" :-(

I hate being a grown up, but I haven't truly been a kid since my 10th birthday. I do remember it, though.

All the poetry of being a kid is lost on my grown-up self, and I don't think I'm alone in this. It's something that happens to everyone, I think. Something that happens when you're young and thinking about all the things you're going to do when you "grow up." You never realize how much fun stuff you're going to miss out on when you're older.

Things that I used to enjoy all those years ago are now just inconveniences. I hate that.I want those feelings back. I want to live with a kid's sense of wonder and fun and joy in the world. I don't know if it's possible, but I want it to be. And doesn't that count for something? HUH!!!

I made a wish and i am running out of time......

I want to be alone because i'm feeling lonely......
whaaaaaaaaaaat a craaaaaaaaaaaaaap???

I read "I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud" -By William Wordsworth and the words below were pacifying to some extent

In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

Oh Well! Am confused greatly now...
I want to laugh at this blog the next time i read it...
Darn, what the heck....
Fight it out.... Get rid off this darkness....
I should quit now...
Damn you... Wrap it up... Grr...